Over-thinking

    “Over-thinking”

    -Acrylic on wood, 15 x 12in, 2016

    Why is it that when you are alone, usually in the darkest hours of your restlessness, that your mind decides to wander to those untouched corners of your mind? It’s that one night that you just want to let everything out by all means. It’s really mind fucking.

    Overthinking, everyday—hurts. It’s as if your mind is in deep torture below sea level. Ang lalim kasi ng iniisip ko, nalulutang tuloy ako. Most of these days, I tend to overthink then later on, cry it all out. But, there wasn’t really anything to be worried about. All of these questions; why? What? What the fuck? How? When? What happened?—I wanted to strangle them because they’re killing me slowly.  

    The statement, Overthinking, ruins the situation, ruins you, and makes everything worse, is my remedy from all these bullshits. I realized that overthinking keeps you from living in the present. When you’re constantly worrying and analysing, you aren’t in the moment. You are taken out of the moment and instead put in a place of suffering. What good does staying in the past do to you? Rather than worrying about your past, go keep on moving forward and concentrate on making up for the past through the present. Life is simple, stop overthinking it.

    In this artwork, I used the movement Lowbrow art because it is closest to my style.  I’ve always wanted to express my deepest thoughts through this art. My process of the artwork helped me in letting all things out. I wanted to cry at first but when I started to paint, I felt relaxed and consumed by the moment. I love how the work turned out. For me, this is art. A type of art i wanted to pursue because it helps me in coping up with my problems even in the most little way possible.